Below is the supposed English translation for the lyrics.



10:19 AM



time is not enough. i need more time, time time time.

20th August
- prepare the whole list of participants
- complete my Retail tutorial due 22nd August
- Strategic Mkt Lecture 4-6pm, and group meeting after
- dance class

21st August
- lecture from 8am - 2am straight. and Retail tutorial from 4-6pm
- update my Lingerie.
- Meet with Giggs
- dance class?

22nd August
- final preparation for Saturday
- Mkt Comm from 11 - 1pm.
- get all the books i need

23 August
- Day at ss2
- dance casting


and that does not include
- dinner with lovers
- getting the room for the boys when they come down
- Call up Genting
- get my Lingerie ready
- completing my minutes of meeting for group work
- movie
- work
- drinks with potential clients for upcoming event
- search for my laptop
- pay my phone bill
- reformat my computer


i want a super HUGE KING size bed.
my blanket.
my baobao.

and i want to sleep for 8 hours. EVERYDAY.

8:27 PM



i am no longer bothered by minor things, am no longer interested in petty talk and even more ignorant of distasteful conversation.


i really want life to be simple. i REFUSE to hear talk about the future, a word spoken and discussed freely especially by a person or people that do not even realise their future is nothing compared to what mine will be like. and i know we will be different, because of the things we do NOW.

do not judge other people, first judge yourself. do not say harsh comments about someone else's attitude, look in the mirror and decide if you can, or will ever live up, to someone like mother theresa. that is what you're implying right? everyone is NO saint. and i say so with a smirk on my face because im reflecting on my own devils in my soul.

i do not want to entertain such nonsense. my future is NOW. my studies is my future. my work is my bank account, my food, my house. my family is my backbone, for now and always. friends dearest to me are, and always will be a part of my life.

if you don't understand my life, then don't advise. because unlike you, i do not prefer the luxury of having a gold spoon placed in my mouth. i prefer to HAVE the gold spoon in my hand and put it wherever i please.

i seek goals, i demand consistency and i am driven by determination. i have faith in everything i do plainly because i know what i'm doing, and very much aware of my actions and the consequences. i have never believed good grades were the pathway to success. i believe that WANTING success and WORKING for success, brings you success.

i am excited to get a cup of caramel machiatto, slouch in the sofa, curl up and read my favourite book at Starbucks.

i, however, am not at all inclined to join you at Poppy because there will be free beer and good music. my mp3 works just fine even after 3 years, and im in support of 24/7 stores like 7-11, they DO sell beers u know.


i know what its like not to have money.
i know what its like to not be able to eat.
i know what it feels like to be uncertain about everything
i know exactly what it feels like to have a future one second, none the next.
of all things, i know exactly what life is really about; of which i am not inclined to discuss.

and i do not know what its like
to party all week without completing assignments until the day it is due
to "miss" an exam
to flaunt my ass at every guy in the club, and go to bed with my boyfriend(s) ?
to give up everytime i meet with an obstacle.
to have new love every 3 months.
and oh, i definitely do not know what its like to NOT study or work for a long period of time.


i like the bubble im in. in fact, more then happy to stay in mine than join yours.

5:30 PM





12:23 PM





10:50 AM



i am so tired.

work starts at 8.30, i WOKE at 8am.

frigging panic attack. rushed to bath and when i brushed my teeth....

i remembered i had made an appointment with the dentist to check out on my swelling. it hurts until i couldn't really sleep well last night, fyi its NOT the wisdom tooth (and i really hope its not). lets wait for the X-ray, before i start whining about how wisdom tooth brings you to your knees.

i can't wait can't wait for all my friends to come back. amanda, wei szi, melissa are back already, waiting for June now! sometimes i can't believe how much of time has passed, and how different everyone is and the things they do. feels like yesterday where we were all in Science class, whispering and giggling and wincing in pain when we got caned on our little hands for not being able to answer a question correctly by our very own Mr.Austin. Or how we enjoyed our class teacher Mr.Ng who makes the most ridiculous statements, yet meaningful in his own way.

i miss many, many, many of my friends. Friends who i've known half my life, friends i just got to know, friends i didn't get a chance to really know. im at work again, and imagining myself in this position everyday for the rest of my life in NO later then 1 year. it scares me how lifeless life can get when you throw yourself into this gruelling routine everyday just to make sure out bank account is large enough to put rice into our plates and a roof over our heads.

so its difficult to say no to your friends when they ask you out after a very TIRING day. not that i mind. i just regret it the next morning when i get up.

sometimes i get lost in everything i do. like, do i want this? or should i get that? if maybe i am supposed to do that. all i want, is to look forward to meeting my friends get a drink and just talk about nothing at all.

im not so sure if i want to know who i am, or religiously continue the process of "lets find out who we are in life".


and here comes the calls/beeping fax machine/emails/blinking phone.



xoxo.




12:46 PM



its been more than a month since i've updated, i feel so... long time ago. unexisting.

so im working with GE, and im so FASCINATED by what i see. im only going to work for 8 days, there is nothing much for me since the president is away in Tokyo, and since im his PA here, not like there is anything for me to do? so i just listen and learn. listen and learn.

but then. there are the calls. the emails. the lists. the schedules. the bookings. the tickets. paperwork paperwork paperwork!

Im getting increasingly wary, yet at the same time in awe over the amount of job opportunities everywhere, in every street every corner every turning in KL. i'm graduating next year, and i am already anticipating my turn to step into the 9-5 world. seeing those who were given chances and taking it to the next level, as well as raising my eyebrows against those who throw away chances and chase their "dream job" .. is making me wonder about my turn.

i sit in my place, with my own printer, my own space, my own laptop, my own line. it just feels so nice to be working in a solid and meaningful environment/workplace.

i really hope i get a good job. a lifelong career. fulfilling work.

and definitely, something that pays the bills. ten times more.

haha.

4:06 PM



i am SO glad the holidays are here!

i've been very tired the past half year (again -_-") been running around, eating alot, sleeping alot, juggling everything and anything i can get my hands on. sometimes i forget what it is like to sleep at 10pm and wake at 10am like when i was little.

i have also forgotten how chivas and black label tastes like. it is time, i must say, to refresh my memory!

attended my cousin's wedding last weekend, i can't help but notice how wedding couples really DO have this glow in their faces when they walk down, when everyone say "CONGRATS!" , when it really begins to sink in that they are married. very happy for her =)




more updates soon! once i finish uploading everything.

till then!

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